Knowing

i wouldn't know what normal feels like anymore, cause this is who i am, this is me. I always taught that there was something wrong with me. I thought been this person would change. Lett me tell you a secret this secret i kept hidden for a long time, i feel ashamed most of the time, you see i tried so hard to push this feelings away and keep them locked far away. i never understood this feeling i never wanted to feel anything but i was going at war with my own self. When i realized i was angry at myself for having this feelings, this feeling for someone. I was afraid losing him and i was scared of the consequences. I was afraid to be loved i was afraid to love him back because not everyone get to blurt out how the feel.i was afraid what will they say what will people will say behind my back but still i have to accept that i want to be with you i want every minute with you cause at the end i feel in love with you. I wont be afraid anymore to tell you i love you cause at the end i know where are my feelings and i wont pushed them away. I love you and i am just to tired to fight it, now i have to just be me.-alex

My heart

I been going threw a hard thing  the guy in my life left me, for good. I was always happy never sad when i first let eyes on him i wanted him, i really thought that i would be so in love with him but it stopped. I felt that loving him and giving him everything would change but it did not. I stood by his side i never walked away but yet he pushed me away, you see i was always nice to this guy i would give him my world my everything my family. everyone wanted to meet him everyone was excited to talk him even my friends wanted him but behind close doors i caused him pain bye having pictures. the love that he had for me was gone he hurt me bye saying good bye.. you see the worst feeling is not being alone its been forgotten bye someone you would never forget. i would never forget you i have to admit that my life would still continue and i will start to post more i just been out of shape in my emotions

Hurt

Hi guys i am back i took a break its been a while actually i been busy with work and art projects i want you guys to know everything