Knowing

i wouldn't know what normal feels like anymore, cause this is who i am, this is me. I always taught that there was something wrong with me. I thought been this person would change. Lett me tell you a secret this secret i kept hidden for a long time, i feel ashamed most of the time, you see i tried so hard to push this feelings away and keep them locked far away. i never understood this feeling i never wanted to feel anything but i was going at war with my own self. When i realized i was angry at myself for having this feelings, this feeling for someone. I was afraid losing him and i was scared of the consequences. I was afraid to be loved i was afraid to love him back because not everyone get to blurt out how the feel.i was afraid what will they say what will people will say behind my back but still i have to accept that i want to be with you i want every minute with you cause at the end i feel in love with you. I wont be afraid anymore to tell you i love you cause at the end i know where are my feelings and i wont pushed them away. I love you and i am just to tired to fight it, now i have to just be me.-alex